i lie these days....cuz poem

[rainsmile]

i lie these days....cuz i don't want him to worrie. i lie these days....cuz im afraid to lose him. i lie these days....cuz i don't want him to be mad. i lie these days....cuz i miss him. i lie these days....cuz it hurts not to be near him. i lie these days....cuz i hate myself. i lie these days....cuz i wish i knew what to do. i lie these days....cuz im not pretty. i lie these days....cuz i don't have money. i lie these days....cuz i don't want to give in. i lie these days....cuz i am afraid. i lie these days....cuz i am ugly. i lie these days....cuz i don't want ppl to see me cry. i lie these days....cuz i don't want to consider myself a abuzed child. i lie these days....cuz i need to stay strong for my mom. i lie these days....cuz i need to make my life worth wile. i lie these days....cuz i want it all to be ok. i lie these days....cuz i want to feel normal. i lie these days....cuz i want to be good. i lie these days....cuz i don't want to go crazy. i lie these days....cuz to keep ppl happy. i lie these days....cuz to keep from ecplaining. i lie these days....cuz to keep ppl at a distance. i lie these days....cuz sothat it won't hurt as bad when they abandon me. i lie these days....cuz sothat ppl don't think im weak. i lie these days....cuz sothat ppl don't think i want attention. i lie these days....cuz sothat i don't have to feel damaged. i lie these days....cuz sothat when they hurt me i can handle it and not avenge my pain. i lie these days....cuz i want to survive.