Poem 9, New love, to James Gider

[Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy]

This feeling is something i have felt many times.
But not like this, not this strong.
I have a feeling that tells me that i love you.
Yet theres doubt and confusion always with it.
I have heard that you feel the same, but you say different.
I don't know what to believe.
I want to believe what i hear but that might just me cruel rumors.
My heart says you feel the same, but my mind says you don't.
Which should i follow?
You know that i'd do anything for you, all you have to do is ask.
I'm here for you, and you know it.
Can't you tell that i like you when you see me looking at you?
Or do you just ignore it and put up that asshole facade for your friends?
Does your reputation really mean so much?
I had hoped that when i left that you would at least tell me how you feel.
Not letting walk out the door and possibly never seeing me again.
I know you think that i'm a stalker and that i'm obsessed with you.
But i just pay attention to you and sometimes it hard to ignore you.
Since we may not see eachother again for quite some time.
I just want you to know that i really like you,
And yes i have dreams about you, but none of them perverted.
They are both confusing and unusual, but good dreams none the less.
i hope you know that i like you maybe even love you.
I hope even more that you feel the same.
Till next we meet, Good bye.