venntttt

[rawr. its. {ali.}the.alternative.music.addict]

they fight
they bicker
and act like complete stangers
no kisses hello
no hugs goodbye
he get angry
she just cries
why can't she forgive him
why can't he get over his pride
they're tearing me apart
but i hide my emotions on the inside.
i don't like to talk about it
they always ask me how i feel
i want them to LEAVE ME ALONE
but i want them near at the same time
im torn between the two of them
a high chance of devoirce
a low chance of things going back to they way they used to be.
the emotional broadcast of my life
severe storm watch
50 % chance of angry tears.
the tears take the place of the words my mouth can't seem to say
50% chance of depression
the kind of depression
the kind of depression where there is a raincloud over my head
no matter what i do the rain wont cease to stop.
i close my eyes but i still hear it
i cover my ears abut i still feel it
like spears
cutting and piercing my skin
getting closer and closer to the walls of my heart
i wanna SCREAM
i wanna YELL
i wanna CRY
i wanna VENT
but there is no one here to talk to
no one seems to know how i feel
......or atleast i feel that way
its hard to trust
its hard to love
will i ever love
will i ever be loved??
am i forever lovelessO.o
people ask me how im doing
i leak lies
like a broken faucet
as a lump of guilt
grows in my throat
as i hold back tears
from flooding down my face
is it ever going to be ok in my world??
there i vented but for some crazy
odd
depressing reason i
still
dont
feel
better
dont get me wrong
im not always a sad soul
when im happy im really happy
when im sad i really sad
random alot
true friends make me happy
haters make me headstrong( trapt ^.^)
music is my addiction and my love
its always there no matter what.
u've met me alicia
i prefer [[[{{{ali}}}]]]
i poured out my feelings
to you.
dont judge me
or label me
or make assumptions because about me
because of" them"
im my OWN person
please.... because i never thought
this would happen to me
........ever ={

[[{{{ali}}}]]
srry its a ton