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My newer poems can also be viewed on my myspace , My username is Mandy, Malyenki Dyavol. (thats russian for little devil) my email is ellabell15@yahoo.com

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on June 14, 2009 at 2:49pm — 1 Comment

Poem 9, New love, to James Gider

This feeling is something i have felt many times.

But not like this, not this strong.

I have a feeling that tells me that i love you.

Yet theres doubt and confusion always with it.

I have heard that you feel the same, but you say different.

I don't know what to believe.

I want to believe what i hear but that might just me cruel rumors.

My heart says you feel the same, but my mind says you don't.

Which should i follow?

You know that i'd do anything… Continue

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on June 14, 2009 at 2:44pm — No Comments

Poem 8, You don't know me.

Those of you that walk by and look at me

Or give me a passing glance or stare

You automatically think you know me

Just by the way I look,

You think you know everything about me.

Enough that i'm not good company for you.

But you could never be more wrong.

You Can't judge just because you saw me.

That happy smile that i display for others

That annoying bitchy attitude that i show.

Isn't what it really seems to be.

They are merely a facade for… Continue

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on June 14, 2009 at 2:43pm — No Comments

poem 7, I can't help but miss you.

Everyday goes by alittle slower.

At first i didn't know why, but now i do

because your not there by my side.

not holding my hand, saying it'll be ok.

I only wish i could done everything right.

So i didn't have to lose you.

But even if i did fix everything would you be here?

by my side not by hers?

I can't help but miss you.

Why you ask?

Well sometimes its hard to let go of the one thing

that made you truely happy in a world full of… Continue

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on June 14, 2009 at 2:41pm — No Comments

Poem 6, I hate you.

I wrote this poem a couple of years ago for my 'Father' that aussie twat bastaard prick.

I needed to get some feelings out, and while i was writing this i was so pissed off that i broke my PEN in half.

As I sit waiting for the school bus,

Those memories that i so desprately tried to forget

Came back one by one.

You made promises that weren't kept.

You only ever told me lies. never the truth.

You said you would never hurt me.

That was a lie.

You… Continue

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on June 14, 2009 at 2:40pm — No Comments

Poem 5, Lament to my life.

I see no point in this anymore.

If i have a life that is worth nothing

Then why am still here?

Every living thing has a purpose.

If that is the truth

Then what purpose is mine?

If i have a purpose, i don't feel it.

I don't see it. I can't hear it.

Yet i am still here.

When no one wants me here.

I hear those snide remarks.

The hurled insults ment to cut flesh.

I can still feel the metaphorical burn on my skin.

I feel the sinister… Continue

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on June 14, 2009 at 2:38pm — No Comments

Poem 4, Killing me with no remorse.

You ended it with no regret.

You walked away with out looking back.

Taking my heart and soul with you.

I lay awake at night sometimes,

Thinking what could have been.

You show no caring emotions for me anymore.

Except the 'friendly' facade you put up for me.

I cried at first.

I cried till there were no more tears.

I sometimes ask myself,

How can i cry when you took my heart?

I don't remember the last time i cried.

And even is i do… Continue

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on June 14, 2009 at 2:37pm — No Comments

Poem 3, Face to face

Instead of telling me a lie, tell the truth.

To my face, not turned away.

Don't keep it inside.

It will do things to you that you will regret.

Tell me while you still have a chance.

Before all other chances run out.

If you don't, you'll lay awake at night.

Wondering 'what if' for the rest of your life.

What you need to say could change eveything.

Don't have your little spies tell me for you.

Tell me yourself. Face to Face.

No one is going… Continue

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on June 14, 2009 at 2:36pm — No Comments

I'm having sugery next saturday, read for details.

So i was at my doctors thursday and they did a cat scan, i thought this would be the normal routine, get the cat scan, get blood test, so the other test that i hate with a little cup, and have ecg. but no they showed me my cat scan from last month and the one from friday and the doctor pointed out an artery that had gotten smaller since last month leading to my right lung. So they told me it was a slowly restricting artery and that they want to get to it before the worst happens, which is no… Continue

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on April 25, 2009 at 10:59am — No Comments

A simple note.

Ok so my second poem took awhile for me to find, and by find i mean let it come to thought.

I only write my poems when I get the feeling of a new poem.

So who ever likes me writing and wants me to write more frequently the let me know so i can start thinking for a new poem.

Also if anyone has a suggestion for me on a new poem or if you just want me to write about something that you would like to see me write about then send me a message or post a comment on my page or my latest… Continue

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on March 19, 2009 at 12:36pm — No Comments

First Poem, The trapped red dove.

Its like I'm never going to be free.

I know i don't deserve freedom because of my sins,

But still, I want to be free.

I feel trapped and I want out.

I'm like a bird in a cage.

I know how they feel now, the birds i mean.

Being stuck in a metal cage,

Keeping me here against my will.

Fearing what will happen if i should lash out or rebel.

I am the red, green eyed, bird behind those chrome bars, trapped for life.

I do want to lash out and rebel all… Continue

Added by Kathryn Amanda Reel aka Mandy on February 18, 2009 at 9:00pm — 1 Comment