The Red Jumpsuit Alliance

January 2010 Blog Posts (15)

the consequence of a mistake

I've been doing allot of self finding in the last couple of weeks. It came to the point where i had to. I felt myself losing control. I felt myself on the fine line of reality and my own little world. I also hadn't realized that my actions, and mistakes where taking a toll on my friends.

I hadn't realized why the world had been angry with me. But then again i wasn't thinking either. I didn't want to. My mom had just kicked me out, and i was backing living with my grandparents once… Continue

Added by Jacquelyn Jade on January 30, 2010 at 11:26pm — 2 Comments

The 13th year of my life.

Some people think all i want is attention. But none of them really know me. If they took the time to ask "Why do you feel that way?" or "Really? Well thats life" then this would be what i would tell them.

When i was 12, all the pets, 4 of them, died, the dog Roxy, the poor thing, we had her for such a long time,

the bird, sunny we got Him in place of Roxy, but he died, Marryann..my cat..i got her for my 4th b-day, she died under my bed. The ginnie pig, i got her for my 10th… Continue

Added by Lulu(is lost in her head) on January 29, 2010 at 7:48pm — 3 Comments

Memories

Someone close to me died this morning. He was one of the few holocaust survivors that was still alive. He taught tollerance, and love. He wasn't related to me in any way, besides our religion. He was like a grandfather, in ways and he will be very missed.

Yit-gadal v'yit-kadash sh'may raba b'alma dee-v'ra che-ru-tay, ve'yam-lich mal-chutay b'chai-yay-chon uv'yo-may-chon uv-cha-yay d'chol beit Yisrael, ba-agala u'vitze-man ka-riv, ve'imru amen.

Y'hay sh'may raba me'varach le-alam… Continue

Added by Johnnie Thebug Poxleitner on January 28, 2010 at 12:38pm — 1 Comment

"A Prayer For Haiti"

"Dear God, I pray for my brothers and sisters in Haiti. I pray for all those who are not there anymore. I pray that they will not just live, but thrive on in life. Let not greed nor hate kill them, but let love and peace stay with them. Let not just countless money come in, but countless love. I pray for the ones who died, who lived, and who will live. Amen."

Please pray for the ones who lost loved ones. Even thou i am not one of them, i still feel there pain just the same. Black,… Continue

Added by Lulu(is lost in her head) on January 17, 2010 at 8:44pm — 1 Comment

OK I NEED TO VENT HOPE NOBODY MINDS

IM FUCKING PISSED (YES I AM SHOUTING) I AM PISSED BECAUSE MY (MAKES ME FEEL WORTHLESS) SISTER WENT ON BARGING ABOUT HOW SHES GOT A JOB AND I DON'T AND HOW SHE HAS A LIFE AND I DON'T THIS ISN'T THE FIRST TIME SHES DONE THIS WHEN I WAS IN SCHOOL AND SHE WAS STILL(YES SHE QUIT AT LEAST I HAVE THAT ONE HER )(A HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMA)(SOMETHING SHE WILL NEVER HAVE)

WHEN WE WERE IN SCHOOL (SHE WAS IN 9TH GRADE I WAS IN 12TH)(SHE HAD THE CHOICE TO GO TO COLLEGE)(I DIDN'T)(THE REASON BEING WAS… Continue

Added by Oliviasmommy <3 on January 10, 2010 at 8:00pm — 1 Comment

sooooo

last night was all sorts of Ridiculous so im waiting for my mom to get off the computer right? and i say to my mom i wish Kevin would call or show up one of these days and then the phone rings. and its Kevin and hes like come spend the night with me at Shannon's (Shannon is Kevin's sister this is the first time i met her let alone staying her house.shes really nice BTW i was scared for nothing)(because it seems lately that every one i meet starts out nice then turns against me.) where was i oh… Continue

Added by Oliviasmommy <3 on January 10, 2010 at 1:14pm — No Comments

So i basicially went through a whole week thinking it was like saterday

yeah like all week i went thinking it was Saturday like every day and like i wake up today and its Friday and i basically feel like ive gone through a whole week without knowing it this is weird.

Added by Oliviasmommy <3 on January 8, 2010 at 3:01pm — No Comments

first time i met RJA

Idk, I felt like sharing my story because I'm still excited about it, and it happened like 3 weeks ago. XD

Anyways, so I was visiting my dad in Jacksonville, FL. (well, Middleburg to be more accurate) for a few days around Christmas, and my older brother was trying to find something to do with me. Hangin' out, you know? His friend Josh called him up and was like, "Dude, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus is playin' at Jack Rabbits in Jacksonville. Grab your sister and let's go!" So Andrew (my… Continue

Added by Cari Treadway on January 7, 2010 at 4:26pm — 1 Comment

So today was rediculous on so many levels some good some bad

ok so this morning i wake up at like noon and get on the computer just to find out that nobody's on and then our new computer comes by fed-ex right. then we hook it up just to find out that it doesn't work.(my dads trying to fix it now hope it works) then i have another nosebleed(these are getting very monotonous i might add) then i get bored because my mom was on the computer all afternoon and i had nothing to do so i cleaned my room and cleaned out my fish tank(hadn't had the chance to clean… Continue

Added by Oliviasmommy <3 on January 6, 2010 at 8:52pm — 5 Comments

got a new computer and really wierd movie quotes

Today our new computer came finally we waited weeks for this crap (even though its not crap our old computer is crap. totally)and then all night even though i haven't seen this movie in ages i got this really messed up movie quote stuck in my head "i am the eater of worlds and of children"-pennywise the clown Stephen kings IT.

Added by Oliviasmommy <3 on January 6, 2010 at 1:04pm — No Comments

OK THIS IS FUCKED UP DUDE

omg i had yet another fucked up dream again last night except in this dream (ok i better explain this first that will make it easier to understand i have 5 siblings one half sister Mary 25 who ive only seen twice in my life. so she doesn't t count and wasn't in the dream. Heather my older sister wasn't in the dream shes 23 im 21. my younger sister Hilary who was in the dream with me is 19 my sister Lindsey who was in the dream too is 18. and my little brother Tommy who is now 16. was there… Continue

Added by Oliviasmommy <3 on January 5, 2010 at 9:25am — 2 Comments

CEREBRAL PALSY AWARENESS

I NEVER THOUGHT THAT WHEN I I CREATED THE CEREBRAL PALSY AWARENESS GROUP ON HERE THAT I WOULD GET THAT MANY MEMBERS AND I AM SPEAKING TO ALL THE MEMBERS THAT HAVE JOINED AND ANYONE WHO IS PLANNING TO JOIN AND ALL THE MEMBER OF THE RED JUMPSUIT ALLIANCE YOU'VE GOT NO CLUE WHAT THIS MEANS TO MEANS HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE THIS. IVE NEVER IN MY LIFE HAD THIS MUCH SUPPORT I MEAN MY PARENTS WERE THERE BUT THEY NEVER REALLY UNDERSTOOD AND IVE NEVER HAD ANY FRIENDS WITH CEREBRAL PALSY SO I WAS NEVER… Continue

Added by Oliviasmommy <3 on January 3, 2010 at 1:41pm — No Comments

finnaly slep yeahhhh!!!!!!

omg after about 4 hours of screaming at my freaking cats beefer (lol) love that name and beanie (long story) i finally fell a sleep and now i can t remember what i freaking dreamt (SP?) about lmao shit ohh well omg and this morning i went on a cleaning tirade sp? and found my green cerebral palsy ribbon (lost it for like weeks) but finally found it in the bathroom. ohh and i do get to see new moon tonight (fucking snow storm that prevented me from seeing it last night damn) lmao sorry kinda… Continue

Added by Oliviasmommy <3 on January 3, 2010 at 1:00pm — 2 Comments

Just pieces of a song I'm trying to write

So I'm just kind of sitting around watching Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers, listening to RJA. I'm a little inspired.

Well anyway, I was wondering what other people think of the lyrics I've pieced up so far, so I'm putting them up here in the hopes that someone will comment with some constructive criticism.

Remember, it's not a song, but pieces of one. So they don't neccessarily go together, or will end in this order. Or at all...

It's a song about heartache and lies, to put it… Continue

Added by Cari Treadway on January 2, 2010 at 11:17pm — No Comments

omg i like got to go out last night geez what a concept ohh and no sleep for like 3 days

so last night just for the sake of asking just to ask i ask my dad if i can go with him town (yes i live in the middle of bum fuck NY population: just about as many people that that live on mars well nobody actually knows if anyone lives on mars but hey there could be invisible people like you know the kind that sneak in your room and jump out at you no wait that's the monster under the bed sorry back to the point im making about the point im making. any way not a lot of people live out here… Continue

Added by Oliviasmommy <3 on January 2, 2010 at 12:13pm — 2 Comments